:: There's Just You.. ::

After my first post of the year, I wanted to blog more about my TV.. my birthday.. Valentines and the days after.. but I never found the time or the mood to just sit and write. Putting it in simple words and also without revealing too much, those days were awesome.

There have been many nights of late which have been bothering me.. I don't know what I'm really bothered about though.. It's just that those nights when I'm travelling in my car, the radio seems to have this thing where it starts to play the most jiwang songs it can find. A few times dy I've texted my macai when this happens "The radio is doing it again!".. the night before was Taylor Dane's Love Will Lead You Back.. James Ingram's Just Once.. and well, I can't quite remember but it was obviously jiwang.. tonight there was The Jets' You Got It All.. Billy Ocean's There'll Be Sad Songs (to Make You Cry).. Curtis Stigers' I Wonder Why.. Tony Rich Project's Nobody Knows.. Boyz II Men's End of The Road... and the list of jiwang songs just goes on and on and on!

Watching yet another episode of One Tree Hill, I realized something.. Unfortunately, I already know what will happen between Lucas and stupid Peyton.. however in the episode I just watched, the things Lindsay said to Lucas tonight was awesome. Even though Peyton might forever be Lucas' true love but to me, Peyton blew it big time when she said "someday".. okay, fine.. to me Peyton blew it the minute she kissed Lucas when she got shot in the leg and ended up breaking up indeed my fav couple (Lucas-Brooke)..

I always thought that I'd love my ex forever. My ex never had the ultimate commendable qualities in a person and in a partner.. but being the kind of person that I am, I strongly believed that a person could change if they want to. In fact, I still am a strong believer of that thought. When my ex dumped me (and the rest) and went for another, I was quite impressed that my ex wasn't cheating anymore.. that perhaps my ex realized that it was time to change the old ways to make that new relationship work.. alas, 7-8 months into that relationship, i found out that nothing has changed. My ex is unfortunately still the same. (of course i don't know how long exactly the old ways found its way back.. but it did..)

Many months ago, my broken heart was touched by this really incredible soul.. no, not my ex you dimwits.. someone new! :p Even though I was smitten quite fast by this person.. but it did take a while for my heart to mend itself.. for my heart to be able to start trusting another person again and to love this person with everything I've got.. a few months with this person, I already knew that I would NEVER, EVER go back to my ex, even if my life depended on it. In fact, I'd rather be miserably single than to ever go back to my ex... cos the funny thing is, even if i were to go back to this ex, i'd still be miserably single WITH a bad habit (or two!).. try psychotic, paranoid, angry, depressed.. basically, all the bad habits I've worked hard to ditch.

There's just something about this new person.. something real. I feel at ease when I'm with this person.. I don't find the urge or a reason to go all mental.. Sure we have fights, usually petty ones that lasts just over a few hours, at most. I smile more. I laugh more.. and close friends can actually SEE that I'm genuinely happy.

and while I was crooning to "You Got It All" in the car tonight.. It made me think of this person.. Yeah, I know there's a Britney-version out there sweetheart, but I love The Jets' version more.

No, don't let him worry you so
Once I met you I let go
Oh you can surely see
You're so much more to me
Just one look and I knew
You would make everything clear
Make all the clouds disappear
You're better than all the rest
Who do I love the best?
Don't you know, don't you know

You got it all over him
You got me over him
Honey it's true
There's just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what I got
Cause you got it all
All over him

Hmm... you know what?

There's no one else I wanna be with..

"There's just you".