:: The one with The Grinch ::

I don't know what I want to blog about right now.. My head hurts. Do you know that feeling when your breath is simply taken by someone? How you go weak in the knees and you blush at the sound of that person's name?

That's exactly how I'm feeling right now. In fact, I just went the distance by acting all idiotic as well.. there's only a certain degree of "cute" for this.. after that line, it could pass off as highly annoying and err.. dia ni apesal?? I think i may have crossed that line... hahaha.... *burying my face into my pillow again*

Lets call this person The Grinch.. haha (I hope to God this person can't be bothered to read my blog!) What qualities I hoped to find in a person, I found it in The Grinch. hahahhaa.... i know using this name, you must be imagining this green horrid looking thing.. actually this person is not a shade of green and is farrrr from horrid looking! I have no idea what to do. I haven't felt this way about a person in a very long time. The excitement of waiting for the next day to come QUICK just so that i can text / email / call / see the person.. and as Hazel witnessed, even jumpe half a minute pun, it had me smiling stupid the whole bloody day k.

From the start, I have failed with this person. I have failed to be cool, I have failed to be collected and I have failed to be discreet. Thinking about this makes me want to bury my head in my pillow even longer now.. but then again, i might die from suffocation and then there won't be a point to all this ting tong ting tong script we're putting together..

If you are reading this my dear Grinch, I'm so sorry for how everything started off on the wrong foot.. Now that i'm aware of my racing heartbeats and those high-on-you rush i get.. and if I could do it all over again, I would show you a more collected Nizz.. more relaxed and more in control..

I don't remember falling in love to be so stressful.. i don't usually fall too easy as well.. to the people who beg to differ.. do not count all those people that i've had kiddy crushes on in the last 1-2 months. I was too eager and desperate to get out of my depression so i tried to make the next person an obsession.. until i met this one.

No doubt that my dear Grinch is not "perfect".. (who initially i wasn't interested in pun, mind you) but there are many things that captured my attention with this one.. many good things that made imperfections look petty.

"Patience is a virtue", katanya.. heh.. i guess patience has never seen my dear grinch smile.. *cair*

P/s: Happy Merdeka Day.. Year 50 and running!